At the time of a family bereavement, particularly a spouse of many years, one is inconsolable. The bereavement I speak of in my case occurred over twenty years ago.........
My therapy at that time was to write as I felt, to express my grief in poems...... I have moved on....... but my thoughts at that time were indeed dark and in need of exorcising!
THE PAIN IN EVERY TEAR
The shadow in my heart does lengthen every day
As the sun in my life sinks beneath the hill.
You have gone, I have a thousand words to say
But they all come out, I love you darling, still.
As I wander through the memories of our past
I feel the warmth of you, so close, and at my side
I thought our love was infinite and it would forever last
Now it haunts me and I know not where to hide.
For that love is now one sided
As it roams in search of you
I know not where to guide it
Far less what you are going through.
I just know my heart is aching
Way down deep inside
Your love was for the taking
Now there's pain in every tear that I have cried.
The shadow in my heart blocks out the light
Cold fingers grip my soul, and chill my bone,
Fond memories share with me my bed at night
But my days are long, now that I am left alone.
I seek the reassurance that only you my love can give
That all is well, in where you now abide
And with that reassurance, I will try my life to live
And the pain that resides within me I shall hide.
....LDB