I am so sorry not to be have around much in the last months.
I don't know if you remember but my husband was very ill with Emphysema.
He went into hospital in August for the usual two weeks, and unfortunately this time he didn't come out.
He died on the 29th September.
Its been a horrible time. Even when you are expecting it to happen sometime you always hope there will be something to help.
Up to now there had been, but not so this time.
Both our daughters and myself were there with him at the end and although it was heart breaking I was so glad that we were.
I can't get used to being by myself though at the moment. I have one daughter that lives close by so if I need anything she is always there to help, but I try not to put on her too much, as she has a family and also works. My other daughter lives about two and a half hours away, but she and her family come every three weeks and stay for a few days, plus she phones me every day.
I have started helping out at a charity shop three mornings a week, they are a lovely bunch there and I do find that talking to other people is helping me.
I know things will get better, but they will never be the same. And if I see one more brown envelope come through the letter box I think I shall scream.
Also now I have no car, as we had a mobility car, so its made me do more walking. I keep getting told its good for me, well yes, I know it is, but in this weather its not nice.
Anyway, sorry to be so morbid but wanted to let you know why I haven't been around.